December 2012
2 posts
Anonymous asked: cutting... You and Chris. Very sad symptom: the online friendship is not sufficient. Wake up. Turn off your computer and come back in the true life, offline, with friends that you can meet in person. Or buy a plane ticket and go hugging Chris in your arms.
Anonymous asked: On saturday you presented an impressive planning on FB in an enthusiastic way. Then you are strongly depressed during the night of sunday. Banal symptom of a bipolar character. Don't worry, it's just a small chemical disorder in your brain! unpleasant but nothing serious! hope to cheer you! and thanks for all your videos.
October 2012
2 posts
Anonymous asked: 2946 subscribers on YT+2744 followers on twitter+684 friends on FB and 0 boyfriend in the real life?... change your strategy.
You know what I hate, I hate that though my youtube, both of the people that I was once with (long distance) that I met though youtube, have both physically met other people in person, and got with them through me, and my videos. So how long does it fucking take for someone to actually find ME through this.. hmm.. all fucking ball shit if you ask me.
August 2012
14 posts
So alone
Back to this again.
And that was the end of the road. Take a bow. Your show is over.
I will always do everything I can to show I care more than anyone else.
If you push me away when I’m there for you, don’t try to pull me back when I’m not.
Anonymous asked: Your so strong and very brave. Your videos are AMAZING. Be strong and keep your head up cutie.
drhappycamper asked: Oh wow, reading your last couple of posts is mighty sad. Are you ok? I know you have no idea who I am but, bitch if you need to talk my ask box is wide open :)
Fuck religion
It honestly fucks up society based on closed-minded, ignorant and bigoted view points.. and quite frankly is a load of horse shit.
Having the person you love fall out of love with you is the worst feeling ever.
It's like a steak to the heart. :(
Why treat me like that. It’s like I’m that friend you hate.. but have to be friends with. But we’re more than friends :/ I’m nothing but nice to you. All I want is our relationship to go back to what it used to be. How I miss it.
Wow.. tonight was just.. wow. One of the most emotional nights of my life.
Nothing will ever work out for me. I think it’s time I just ended it.
I feel so lonely in life. Even though right now I have company.. I have such a huge fear of abandonment. I don’t really have good friends. I don’t leave my room. No one I know is like me. My boyfriend is 3000 miles away from me. I live in the middle of nowhere.. And soon all the ‘friends’ I have at college will all move away and do their own thing. I’m bored of life....
I don’t even know why, but I have this urge to cut. It’s so fucking strong. I don’t exactly know why either but it’s fucking killing me. I’m so fucked up in the head and no-one even notices. It’s like a war zone in my head. Just caos. Fucking despise my life sometimes, when the only good in it isn’t there. Just brings you down to this fucking level.
July 2012
7 posts
You know, after we fight or argue, and one of us says “bye” or ends the conversation. I still sit and wait, starring at the messages.. Hoping you decide to message me again. Sometimes for hours. It pains me, I can’t be mad at you, I can’t let us have this. It hurts so much and I actually care, a lot. I feel like I can write as much as I fucking want it won’t change...
Dear world.
This is to the people that are concerned that I put too much of my life out in the open:
I don’t care.
Seriously. I enjoy people knowing about my life. I don’t care about their opinions or views on my life.. as it’s not their life. They can say as much shit about me as they want, it will never change how I live my life, or who knows about me. I am comfortable with thousands of...
Anonymous asked: so were does this guy live that your in love with ?
I will not give up.
I would do anything to spend the rest of my life with you. I hate living so far away from you. I can’t stand not to be able to hold you. I’m working towards coming to visit you asap.. but I won’t want to come home. I want to move there. But I know my parents arn’t shifting from this country any time soon.. and if I do manage to get there.. would you still be with me? Why...
OMFG.
Just cause you’re fucking pissed, doesn’t mean you have to make me fucking pissed.. and why me? Out of all the people I’m the one that’s meant to be the closest to you. I’m always there for everyone, even when I’m pissed, mad, depressed I’ll never take it out on someone. Fuck sake. What a shitty day. AS USUAL. ._.
Fuck the distance.
I want to be with you now. It hurts so much. I need you in my arms I need to hold yhuu. I don’t want to loose you and I feel like I can’t keep you when you’re so far away. But I can live with it for now, but can you? I don’t know how I could move on without you. You mean so much to me. You’re all I think about. I love you so much :’(
Nothing like feeling self hatred on your birthday… Its been barley 3 hours and it feels like its going to be a shit day. Thanks to those that treated me like crap. Here I am, at a friends house silent crying in the night thanks to this. Why does my life have to suck so hard. Why do I even have to be writing this shit on my birthday.. I can’t take this shit. I hate my life. I want out.
June 2012
3 posts
..
You guys know I only come here when I’m depressed, or worried, or upset. I’m not a suicidal wreck like the other times I’ve posted but I’m just upset. And worried.. and I guessed depressed too. I just don’t want anything to go wrong. Ugh.
I fucking hate this feeling.
Thanks mom.
Wow.. So my mom just yelled at me for caring too much about my appearance and only women do that.. Feels fucking great to be accepted -_- :(
May 2012
1 post
Been a while.
Isn’t it sad how I’ve loved about 4 people properly in my life. Yet 3 of them, I knew in real life, and they didn’t love me back, and the 4th I only knew online, and was the only one to actually love me back.
I wonder when the day will come that someone will love me back, that I can see, hold, and be with. I’m tired of being the only one. I need someone.
January 2012
4 posts
If I don't kill myself today it will be a miracle.
:/
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How awesome would it be to have someone in this bed with me right now. :/ To fall asleep with
December 2011
12 posts
What is a Boyfriend and where do I get one?
I kid. I know what a boyfriend is.. And I NEED ONE :( a real one too.
Anonymous asked: Hey, Jamie. i just wanted to tell you, you inspire me :)
Anonymous asked: GAH YOU'RE SO HOT I CAN'T STAND IT. I'm watching all of your videos right now. Nomnomnom
Bold what applies to you. →
I am a male.
I am a girl
I am shorter than 5’4.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my body.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have a piercing in a place other than my ears
I...
So true.
Person: you're ugly
Me: okay
Person: you're stupid
Me: okay
Person: you're fat
Me: okay
Person: Lady Gaga sucks
Me: bitch do you want to die
Anonymous asked: This isn't a question but... You're amazingly hot. Just saying. I'm bisexual, and you almost made me want to be all the way gay for you. But. I like the boobs. Anyway, yes. I really want to like, well you know. :P :D And you should post more pictures of hot guys.
3 tags
When I find a boyfriend, he better be a fucking...
I’m just sayin’… lol
Why arnt dreams real?
Not only did I dream that I was with him again and that we were really close.. But I dreamt I came out to my parents.. I actually felt really happy. Then I woke up.
I can't explain how much I adore you.
This person will never know, but they mean the world to me. <3 I can’t explain how much I want them.
November 2011
23 posts
Anonymous asked: Aww people do care about you I promise x
“Remember why you’re on this earth. Thats to do what you fucking want to...”
– Me
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